My Mind Is Blank... I think..

I can't think
I can't write
I can't focus
My mind tends to just wonder
I lose my train of thought
Not knowing why
Drives me insane
What is going on
There is so much restlessness within me
Do I need to be in pain to concentrate
Do I need to feel anger
Must I always feel so sad to be able to express myself
Oh no I can't have my life be this way
I have no pain or sadness in my heart
I have joy and peace of mind...
I am going insane wanting to comprehend...
Oh no has it come to it's end
Me writing my wildest thoughts...
It can't be no way...
I don't want to be in pain to write
I want to express my every true emotion
Whether it's pain, pleasure, desire or just plain happiness...
Maybe I haven't experienced other emotions...
I don't know...
My mind is blank...