Is it FRIDAY yet!!!!!

It has been a crazy start to my week and it's barely Tuesday, yet longing for Friday already!!! I was so stressed with taking my math test yesterday that it set my body in tired mode.  I need to stop slacking off on going to the gym and get back into my routine.  It will help me clear my mind and help me get rid of the tension.  After work hitting the gym, then picking up my daughter from cheer practice rush home and then off to English class!!!  Sorry I'll be all stinky!! 

Sodium Laureth Sulfate

It is  funny how when you go looking for certain products, whether it is for you home or for your own personal use we never bother reading the ingredients and if we do we may not know what they all mean.  I started searching Sodium Laureth Sulfate (SLS) or (SLE) and it was an eye opener.  Certain websites claim that there has not been enough or supportive scientific evidence to link it to cancer but claim that higher concentration does cause skin irritation and even corrosion of the skin.  WOW like really??  I do not want to use anything that can cause any sort of skin irritation or cause any harm to any part of my body.  How can the FDA approve such products?  From now on I am going to be more cautious as to what products I purchase.... I wonder can this be a reason why people's skin becomes so sensitive to products and doctors claim it is just allergies. 
Thanks professor Oberman for sharing!!!

Reality Checks In

Reality checks in and in comes the light into true vision of it's being.  In your own mind you always saw things in one way but then reality checks in.  What you really thought was there was never really there.  Only the illusion of you being in Love but reality opens the door and in comes the truth.  A truth you dare not bare.  In your own mind everything was great but reality made you see that all along there was nothing there.  You thought it was Love but you got slapped in the face with the fact that it was all nonsense. Reality checks in and it really opens your eyes to realize that you have wasted all this time on something that was never there.

Math

I truly enjoy learning and I've never had a hard time understanding math.  Now that I am taking math 125 for some reason I feel beyond lost.  Is it me or is it the professor???  I think it's the professors teaching skills and methods, which lose me.  All his teachings are based on his own power points and runs through the lessons very quickly.  I am hanging in there and being tutored will be my best friend. I just want the math nightmares to go away!!!

Happy FRIDAY!!!!

I have survived this week, it's been a little rough.... Trying to get into the swing of things and adjusting to going back to school.....  Having a teenage daughter in high school is a lot of work in itself and her being in cheer just adds on to the pile of craziness.  I love the madness of my schedule though... I don't know the real meaning of relaxing weekends anymore!!!! 

Perfect Night

The night has fallen and the stars are gleaming with such brightness. The moon has casted it's light upon my soul with an everlasting glow. The breeze of the night is calming and soothing. Listening to the crushing waves,feeling the warmth of ocean and the mist of waves touch my face makes my body tingle. To be in your arms in such embrace and feel your body next to mine is such a display of such passionate love and romance. The softness of your gentle lips pressed onto mine brings the magic out from this never ending night. To feel you caress my body and feel your warmth ignites my every desire. My perfect night is never ending.

My Mind Is Blank... I think..

I can't think
I can't write
I can't focus
My mind tends to just wonder
I lose my train of thought
Not knowing why
Drives me insane
What is going on
There is so much restlessness within me
Do I need to be in pain to concentrate
Do I need to feel anger
Must I always feel so sad to be able to express myself
Oh no I can't have my life be this way
I have no pain or sadness in my heart
I have joy and peace of mind...
I am going insane wanting to comprehend...
Oh no has it come to it's end
Me writing my wildest thoughts...
It can't be no way...
I don't want to be in pain to write
I want to express my every true emotion
Whether it's pain, pleasure, desire or just plain happiness...
Maybe I haven't experienced other emotions...
I don't know...
My mind is blank...

It Felt So Real

A gloomy morning you feel the cool breeze sneak into your window
Chills run through every part of your body
Sitting there starring into the gloom of the sky
Not knowing what to do next
Wanting to just have a soothing touch

To embrace your every movement

To bring you warmth

And fill you with ecstasy

To bring you such pleasurable desire till you can't no more 

To make you moan & groan till there is no tomorrow

To make you yearn for more and more 

Leaving you with the taste of passion

You yell and scream in utter satisfaction

You wake up and find yourself alone

It felt so real 

It felt so good

Such a dream caused you to explode leaving you unsatisfied... 

Effortless

If at the end of our day we took time to reflect in our days activities, I believe we would see all that was accomplished without even trying.  So imagine how much more we can endure if we just invested more effort and time to attain our goals in life...

How can you???

It’s difficult to face the troubles of the heart when you can’t seem to understand what is really going on within your soul.  So many paths, so many choices; never knowing which way to turn to.  Such confusion is overwhelming, taking the easy way always seems much simpler but in the end it’s never rewarding.  Once again you find yourself in the same circumstances as you did from the beginning.  How can you decide?  How to know??  Do you follow your mind or do you follow your soul???  Such contradicting situations never knowing how it will all turn out.  Knowing that the simple mind wants no complications but complications is all you ever face with no intentions of regret.  Does it makes sense or is this just nonsense???  How do you know?  How can you tell????   No one ever knows what really is at the end of the tunnel.  It's just a road of many straight and curved paths that leads you into a state of confusion; always wondering which way to go…..

All I Know

Sometimes I get lost in translation
Not able to comprehend what surrounds me
Stuck in the world of the unknown
Losing grip of reality
Not wanting to let go of what seems so true
For so much has been taken 
Can't bare to lose anymore
It's numbness that over comes this empty soul
Wanting to feel warmth
But unable to release the coldness of the hurt
For pain is all I've known
The only comfort I've known is the thorns in my back
For I've carried them for so many years
Not realizing that I've lost so much
Indulging in sorrow is all I've known
Reality seems to slip away
I lose my breath can't tolerate the pain
I lose myself in this emotion of rage
Not wanting to hate, I can't help myself
This is all I know
I don't know any better.....